Measuring one’s power
No, this is not a logging coop but a section of our yard.
Well, it’s almost 2 months since we settled (closed) on our old place and moved. It’s been interesting getting used to being in the same area but in a different house. Not long after we had moved in, we had 10 extremely large pine trees cut down. They impeded all our NE sun and stopped anything growing on at least half the property. I am no fan of these introduced trees, which are majestic but completely dominate any area they are in. So we made the decision to cut them down (with approval from relevant official bodies) and in doing so, to chip, mill and use all the trees on site.
All of these ‘facts’ and intentions are fine in theory….yes, the trees are a weed; yes, they take up all our light; yes, although I can’t stand pine it will be used for building, furniture making, yes, more suitable trees will be planted to replace them and so on……but when you see trees of 50- 100 years lying on the ground…..well, I burst into tears. It was destruction and those logs could not be put back together.
I was struck by how ‘our’ idea had made this happen. How there were guys, chainsaws, a chipper and a crane and we had initiated the process. How although it is a change for the better and neighbours on the whole were happy to have sun in their yards as much as we were…..it was so intense.
For me, it is a lesson about one’s will and desire. It illustrates to me that what you think, what you think you know and the actual knowing are all very different. And when making a decision even after weighing it all – sometimes we still don’t have any real understanding of how to measure our power.